What If I Don't Want To?

boy you got some nerves to talk behind my back
when you can't even say a word to my face
you hear me laugh boy?
hello hello hello you think you can play me like a cello cello cello
why you judging me? are you scared of me?
i'm something new why can't you see?
looks like a bad girl, but i'm a good girl
i'm standing here just doing me why you standing judging me
keep on looking like i'm trash
every time you do just know you make me laugh
drop it like a bad girl love like a good girl
i know i make you lust over me when i drop it low i see
so why you acting like you wouldn't hit this
i know you gonna go home and miss this
low cut tank top short skirt girls don't know
stiletto rocking girls are nothing but hoes?
boy that's low
hello hello hello if you're scared boy stay low stay low stay low
stay away from me why you talking about me
i can see through you clearly
look like a bad girl? but i'm a good girl
i'm standing here just doing me why you standing judging me
keep on looking like i'm trash
every time you do just know you make me laugh
drop it like a bad girl love like a good girl
i know i make you lust over me when i drop it low i see
so why you acting like you wouldn't hit this
i know you gonna go home and miss this
(come and take) someone who can handle me
a real man who can believe
(no more fake) no more phonies like you no oh~
(keep me safe) is there someone who can claim?
confidently call me babe
and let me be free
someone who watches from far away how i be me?


you don't know me, so shut off boy.

Bad Girl, Good Girl

"Life is not full of rainbows and marshmallows falling from the sky and unicorns running around and shit." -Godbro

I really needed that haha.

I love older brothers :)

Maroon 5 Makes Me Happy

=)

My Theory

Four days ago, I was thinking about life, and had a mini-epiphany. I just had to share it with somebody, so I told good ole Celsius :)

"Celsius, I just realized something... I know why people think about the past so much and put so much emphasis on the future... It's because the present is only a fleeting moment... and it doesnt last. Yet paradoxically, the present is the only moment, and the present lasts forever. Do you get me??"

I could totally write an essay on this come school. Makes sense though, right?? Man I'm soo good :P

Why I Love You Dad:

1. I will never be better than you in Chinese.
2. 有我做你女儿还不如有个狗
3. Our father-daughter relationship ends at the conclusion of my college education.

Thanks Dad! I love you too.

Take me to Caliiii :) :) :)

在阳光底下，有人吗？噢开始了。。。
亲爱的，你看起来很失落，眼睛红红的，泪也流了，
这个世界，你肯定越过。。。你说。。。

你不了解我，你根本不在乎我，她说，
你不了解我，而你没有穿着我的锁链，

必要但呼吁了，带着你所有的思想横过一个开放范围
当花看着你。。。不只是它们看到你会哭
她说。。。

你不了解我，你根本不在乎我，她说，
你不了解我，而你没有穿着我的锁链，

她说。。。我计划去波士顿。。。
我计划从新开始新生活，
我计划从新再开始，在这没有认识我，
我要离开加洲，我已经厌倦了天气，
我计划找个爱人，飞到他去西班牙。。。
我计划去波士顿，我想我只是累了，
我想我需要一个新的城市，为了离开这一切
我想我需要一个日出，我已经厌倦了夕阳，
我听说夏天很美好，下雪也好。。。

波士顿。。。在这没有认识我。。。
在这没有认识我。。。
在这没有认识我。。。
波士顿。。。
在这没有认识我。


你懂吗？我不想在纽约了。算了，人生就是这样了。。。
想念你了。

Credits to myself ;D for translating it lolol
Boston - Augustana

人生就是这样了。

I found this website today that analyzes the personality of bloggers according to their entries. So I analyzed myself and this is what I got:

The analysis indicates that the author of http://hanakiwi.blogspot.com is of the type:
ISFP - The Artists
 
The gentle and compassionate type. They are especially attuned their inner values and what other people need. They are not friends of many words and tend to take the worries of the world on their shoulders. They tend to follow the path of least resistance and have to look out not to be taken advantage of.

They often prefer working quietly, behind the scene as a part of a team. They tend to value their friends and family above what they do for a living.

Analysis
This graph displays dominant parts during the writing
 

Credits: typealyzer.com

Hah... my brain activity... =.=; eh. If you're bored, go create a blog, write some stuff, and go analyze yourself :) I tried analyzing my Facebook page through this but didnt turn out too great cause it also analyzed... the ads and other technical Facebooky stuff on each page. And also, my profile is super private :x so it couldnt even get to any of my stuff to analyze. And even if it did, I just realized about 50% of the analysis would be based on what people posted on my wall =.=;

我爱中文♥

时间过的好快啊～！ 两个星期一着眼就不见了。 But that's probably cause I had something planned to do every single day :P

我不知道为什么, 但是我现在心情很好 ^___^ 过去的事，我都不怎么在乎了 O.O

我也觉得自己很幸福，很快乐。。。 and what doesnt kill me only makes me stronger (not! only in a Kanye West song lol) 所以我现在 o-k 啦~

其实我认为像这样对我来说。。。actually no, 对所有关心我的人来说。。。 不管怎么样, 将来会比较更好。

没有我所有的朋友，家人，现在的我就不是我了。 So thanks for that :) Even though most of you may never understand/read this, or realize the impact you've had on me, know that you did make a difference in my life, regardless of how small the interaction or how few/many words were said. I remember (hopefully) all of them ;D and I will probably never write a post like this again because I'm starting to feel uncomfortable >_> soo I will end with something that I learned today from my brother and Eddie (my mom's COOOLEST friend hehe): they sometimes serve this thing in the military called sos which = shit on a stick LOL but yeah..

谢谢大家的照顾！:)

YES! ;D

Cant believe ittt, tmrw's the last day of classes! I'm halfway done with my college career :o

Daddy's credit card also expires this month... darn! >_>;

I recently developed an active addiction to chocolate and one day I decided to google image it and I found these! --

Chocolate pencils, and pencil shavings yumm

Chocolate + shoes = LOVE

A chocolate keyboard; reminds me of Conker's Bad Fur Day.. ahh good times~

I wish I had some chocolate right now... I ate the last bar this morning T_T;

Run Devil Run

My boyfriend is addicted to the SNSD version of this song. He sounds soo manly when he sings it xD

Blah. I'm bored. =______=;

I would play the SIMS game that he put on my comp, but it doesnt save... #@!$ so yeah. KIND of an inconvenience.

I cant stop thinking about clothes...

Yeah, I should sleep.